You kept going back to them

You kept going back to them

Looking for what you needed

You kept going back to them

Hoping they would finally show you love

Longing drove you to look to them

While experience repeatedly beat you away

Even when all faith was gone

And trust had been shattered beyond repair

You kept going back to them

Dreaming that someday what you needed

Would be there

“Maybe this hope was foolish”- you said

“But it is all that I have

Maybe the day will never come,

But I have to hope its there”

Over and over I watched you fly to them

Like a moth into the fire

Longing for some soothing warmth

And finding only your soul’s pyre

Each time you came away from them

A little bit less whole

Seeking some sort of solace

And finding nothing but an empty hole

Years and decades go by

As you battle towards them in vain

Until something clicked in your mind

Or snapped in your soul

And you realized that they would never

Help you to be whole

In pain overwhelming,

And a loss of faith so complete-

You took to planning

What you hoped would be their defeat

“I’ll take my life” you said

“And then they can’t hurt me anymore”

and before I go I will tell the world what you did”

What you didn’t think about

Was who you would really hurt-

For if they didn’t care when you were alive

Would they care when you were beneath the dirt?

You left me alone-

I know it is what you needed to do

But now I am left with a world of hurt

And no clue what to do

by Mindy Hawk, All Rights Reserved