There
was a time I would have cared how this sounds-
But
today is not that day
So
I am going to tell it like it was.
You
hurt me more than anyone could know
There
is no love in your ice-covered heart for anyone else
You
only love yourself.
How
was I supposed to learn to live
rather
than just survive
When
you inflicted on me only pain and abuse?
You
were my father. you were supposed to teach me who I was
Instead
you mirrored back your twisted version of the world-
You
left me cold and alone, crying to be helped.
My
years of pleas for help fell on your unfeeling, uncaring ears
You
heard me and laughed at my anguish
Years
and decades of your torment ruled my existence.
Now
I am finally far away from you
Beyond
your farthest reach
Where
you can no longer abuse me as you have for so long.
Never
again will I be subjected to your perverted touch
Or
to Mother’s implacable anger for calling you out
Now
you will have to find someone else to blame for all of your problems
Unlike
Mother, I feel guilty for not being able to protect my nieces
From
your sick, vulgar ways
But
at least I know that I TRIED!
I
am tired beyond all caring
Unable
to fight this pain any longer
Now
I go to my rest.
by Mindy Hawk, All Rights Reserved
