The last note

There was a time I would have cared how this sounds-

But today is not that day

So I am going to tell it like it was.

You hurt me more than anyone could know

There is no love in your ice-covered heart for anyone else

You only love yourself.

How was I supposed to learn to live

rather than just survive

When you inflicted on me only pain and abuse?

You were my father. you were supposed to teach me who I was

Instead you mirrored back your twisted version of the world-

You left me cold and alone, crying to be helped.

My years of pleas for help fell on your unfeeling, uncaring ears

You heard me and laughed at my anguish

Years and decades of your torment ruled my existence.

Now I am finally far away from you

Beyond your farthest reach

Where you can no longer abuse me as you have for so long.

Never again will I be subjected to your perverted touch

Or to Mother’s implacable anger for calling you out

Now you will have to find someone else to blame for all of your problems

Unlike Mother, I feel guilty for not being able to protect my nieces

From your sick, vulgar ways

But at least I know that I TRIED!

I am tired beyond all caring

Unable to fight this pain any longer

Now I go to my rest.

by Mindy Hawk, All Rights Reserved